@wheeljack Managed to get some sleep and it's better this morning. The urge to get another is there, but I think I've got it tamped down for now.
When my SO went in to the hospital a few weeks ago, I started vaping nicotine to help deal with it. I was getting lost down all kinds of emotional blackholes on weed.
The third vape ran out around noon today, and this feels like the first time I quit smoking, 13 years ago.
I had been able to have occasional smokes since I quit, and I never felt the urge to smoke more. I could do that for days.
But now, it's like the back of my brain is covered in mud that I can't wipe off.
Fuck.
@nic Nope, still have 44 to go 🤣
Ben Böhmer & Rob Moose - Slow Wave (An Apparition) feat. Gordi #music
Wandering the fediverse, screaming in to the void. It occasionally whispers back, but I haven't experienced it scream back, yet.
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