I don't normally zap myself on purpose, but when I do...
🎵 It's electric!... 💃
So I hooked myself up to one of those electronic muscle therapy things and OK SO I PRETTY MUCH ELECTROCUTED MYSELF.
After my fingers completely curled up and I lost feeling in my arms, I was finally able to hit the stop button with my nose.
No one told me it was on the max setting, but my anxiety is definitely down.
You ever video call someone & end up accidentally reaching a complete stranger?
It's happened seven times in the last month and I gotta say - I didn't expect to become video-pals(?) and it's not nearly as awkward as I would've imagined.
For every one of those "accidents", I've realized we're all a bit shy, a little wild, maybe even lonely, but making those connections have opened my eyes & ears to people I might never have known otherwise, for which I feel very grateful.
I'm still shoveling snow even tho it'll all melt in a few days. But it's the least I can do to help neighbors, postal workers and others get to all the mailboxes and whatnot in time for Xmas.
Seriously tho, I learned a lot, got a bit messy, but I also avoided paying another "expert" $300+ just to "take a look."
This calls for a celebration!
Poetry on courage & strength
Inside of this darkness
that I love so well,
I search for my pieces
that broke when I fell.
A mosaic of strength
built for your eyes to feast,
I came to hell, shaken
but I’m leaving, a beast.
– Caroline White
// #art by yossi kotler
Portishead - Essential Mix Classics bbc radio 1 [1995-04-23]