Mh (-), identity-ish
You ever just cry because you have no idea what the hell is even going on in your head anymore?
I have no idea who I am or what I want or what I'm doing and I'm still just super against this state of mind
Lesbian gushing
You ever have a bunch of near-retirees you work with strongly advise that you ignore your friends' advice to wait and just move a whole bloody continent to be with your girlfriend once you have to leave in June
Poly stuff-ish, family, judgement anxiety
She's so wonderful as she is and I want to show her to the world just as she is, not some moulded version of what I think others would want to see her as
She's wonderful and deserves to be seen as the beautiful soul that she is
Poly stuff-ish, family, judgement anxiety
I think the really bad part is that I'm basically forcing them into being complicit in my own unhealthy defensive behaviours.
Weirdly enough delaying the inevitable does not change the outcome so things may as well be known.
Poly stuff-ish, family, judgement anxiety
Coming to the realisation that feeling the need to keep Phoebe's polyamory (and by extension, Katie) quiet is a repetition of the same approval-seeking delay tactics that also kept me from telling my family about being gay (lmao fukin idiot) and then later trans - and a whole host of other tiny little things that just led to my relationships with my parents being fragile and strained.
It's almost like I should stop lying by omission or something
Formerly @hannah I am reborn